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The "Invisible Illness"

Ever think what the hell is the sense in trying anymore?  That was my whole week. In July I had a motor vehicle accident that I can not discuss because there are attorneys involved but just know I was sitting at a red light minding my own business.  This has drastically changed my life, I am constantly in pain.  This week has been crap for me...I actually entertained the idea of ending it all so I am not a burden on anyone. I am feeling like a failure lately. This depression is wreaking havoc on my life.  I pray everyday. I get up, show up, and paste a smile on my face. But that is not how I feel. I am hoping my smile will force my brain to think it is happy. It did not work.  My boyfriend Larry asked me what was wrong the night I was thinking of ending it all and my heart just literally split in two and the tears came. I reassured him that I love him and let him know that he changed my life. You know, just in case something "happens".  It is not fair to hi